Merge Worship

I'm reading a new devotional called "Solo" by Eugene Peterson. In the first devo (on Gen. 3:1-10) he challenges the reader to confess ways that they've rebelled against God. I began listing my transgressions aloud and then I heard the still, small, overwhelming voice of God in my heart say...

"You're confessing the overt rebellions, what about the ones that fly under the radar? The covert ways you rebel against me. Your refusal to trust. Your refusal to hope. Your willingness to just live and get by. I want all of you. I want you to be ALL MINE."

Boys and girls, the word for today is "conviction". See you on the other side.

I was watching The West Wing last night while I couldn't sleep and this scene was in that episode. The young lady in the scene wants to say thank you to a teacher who is retiring and has asked for the President to issue a proclamation for her. I'll wait until you finish...





This scene moved me and I'll tell you why. I'm moved by a lot of things, but consistently I'm moved by people making a significant impact on the lives of others. It's why some of my favorite moments in life haven't been musical or public. It's the phone call from an old friend telling you how much you meant to them. It's sending an email to my childhood pastor to tell him "a lot of what I do has a little 'Steve' in it. It's the teenage drummer crying when I left my last church because of our friendship. It's receiving an email that says thanks for your encouragement or sending an email that thanks someone not for what they did or do, but for who they are to you.

Relationships matter to me. Honestly, I'm not that moved by title or position. I love the opportunity to lead, but the opportunity to impact others is what motivates me to keep going. Be encouraged all of you who give your life trying to make a positive difference in the lives of others. Someday you'll get your call too. The one I'm hoping for is "well done good and faithful servant".

Is there anyone out there who is missing a moment like this phone call from you? You might not be able to get the President on the line but I'm sure they'd love to just hear it from you.

I had a thought over the weekend that kind of haunted me. Here it is:

What would I change about my life if it were being filmed 24/7?

Don't worry; this isn't going to be one of those "God is already watching your life 24/7 so change it anyway" kind of posts. It did challenge me to think of what I would do differently. I'd probably:

• Pray more & stress less
• Spend more time listening than talking
• Spend less time tweeting
• Play less Halo and play more board games with my kids
• Spend less time watching TV and more time reading
  
• Hug my wife more
• Never ignore my kids when they want to do something
• Spend less time on Facebook and have my "face in the book" more (that's a Tony Sutherland special)
  

All these things are good, but as I thought them through I had an overwhelming response rise in my heart. On my journey to try and know God I've gotten to the place where relationship has replaced religion and it is a wondrous thing. I'm going to work on some of these things and change where I need to but I'm not going back to viewing God as a taskmaster keeping galactic tabs on my dos and don'ts.

I refuse to trade beauty for duty. How about you?